May 12, 2003

• p.s. oh and, my hunni made me happy this weekend when he told me i would save us money by making all the artwork we would ever want myself. i was just amazed he called it art.

  
  

  today was actually amazingly cooler than it had been.

  
  

  there is one bell pepper and one jalepeno and two tomatoes actually growing now. all i am hoping for out of this first try is one thing from each fruit/vegetable. the zucch will be plucked soon, it's about 6 1/2 inches now. have to eat the ones i still have from the store, quickly!

  
  

  started window tinting the back of the house rooms. just did the small back door panels to start and get the hang of. for some reason the cats staring at me while i did, was REALLY irritating. i was irritated period. before i had started, i'd grabbed some newspaper (to clean panels), so i see there is an advice column, and 2 of the issues sounded ridiculously similar to issues i knew. but the advice the person gave was so tunnelvisioned, one-sided, narrow-minded, whatever you call it. i was about to write her a letter about it. now, i will say what i am about to say is only from my several experiences, so mayhaps i sound very narrow-minded, but i am also one who knows that some things take a while to work through and there isn't just one answer or one way to 'fix' something.  her advice to a person who was only hearing negative things from a friend (like how lonely they are) and the friend sounded depressed with thier life. this person had stopped conversing with the negative person cause they couldn't take it. the advice was 'tell the person to seek counseling.' i know this sounds harmless, but it's wrong. you don't tell a person who's down that the only help you can offer them is to go seek counseling. you really ought to find out if there IS anything you can help to change and follow through. people need to know they are loved, not pushed off on someone else. if someone told me to seek counseling i would feel like a failure. once the person feels better, once the person feels like only counseling will help, that they have exausted all other avenues, then they are more likely to see it as help rather than submission to average society. sometimes people are what they are around. problems rub off on others... sometimes counseling doesn't work!!!

  
  

  anyways, so every hair in body decided to get in the way, or irritate or itch me while: cleaning the glass, measuring/cutting tint sheet, spraying the VERY NOXIOUS bubbly fluid on the glass, pealing backing off, unrolling tint section, spraying fluid on the sheet, then placing sheet on window then spraying more bubbly stuff, and squeegie-ing; X's 3, about 35 to go...

  
  

  washing dishes in the tub...old quick. getting used to the sink not being in the kitchen...nuts!

  
  

  mothers day. i start off trying to be reserved yet sociable. then might blurt out something totally not related, but perhaps interesting. then i am cautious and bite my tongue. then i end up having to stick up for myself (was told i was bragging, i boast happily about good things, i do not brag!!!) or have to justify my actions (about how i cook?!!! of all things, WHO CARES!!!)

  
  

  different personalities in a 8x10 room do not work well together. especially when some of them feel the need to prove things to others. (no, not me, i did have to clarify a couple things, but i do not feel i have anything i need to prove to anyone about what i choose to do in MY life; i don't attack people on something i know works for them or that they are working on, it's pointless).

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