i’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sick…when I coughed, I pulled my back out.
Raspy breathing, chest congested. but omg, my back HURTS most.
Yes, I know it’s been a year…..apologies.
I work and work and work my fingers to the bone….I do a lot of yelling at my job, so, having no voice when I am sick…. you can guess how much it ruffles my feathers.
Writing notes.
I had to write notes to people because I was too exhausted to speak…whisper in a buckled breath, fading in and out.even with no voice, people can hear you quite well over a radio/walkie talkie. Used lots of Death sign language.
In game I have several children now, about 15-17 and yes, I lose count, some are not official yet, and some carry my name. Yes I know I never told which game I am in…
Anyways I talk to some of my people in game out of game, sometimes IC, sometimes OOC. Was reading my -son’s- log at live journal. -blush- he quoted me. -Beam-
In game I no longer speak to my brother, sister, or those from my fathers’ bloodline. It’s unfortunate, but obviously necessary, the game had lost it’s fun and  was actually getting boring from all the drama.
I’m almost circle 84, have to get to 99 to become a dragon. seems like a hop skip, but it isn’t. As you progress the levels become harder and harder to achieve. at the moment  I have to kill about 15 large creatures just to get 1%.
Some of my more recent children are starting to comment that I have too many children…They all get individual attention and help, so I don’t know what their deal is. My older children have been gone so long they have either been wiped from  my bloodline or just simply never come around anymore. Someone made a comment about children and  I told them -sheesh, I thought by now I would OWN the game by having so many children. No such luck, far from it.I am dying for grand children and none of my children have had any yet
I do have a partner in crime in the game. We have similar abilities and perform similar tasks in the game. We watch each others backs so to speak. We run an herbal shop and hunt together. When I am at a loss for words, he usually picks it back up. It had confused some until they got to know how we worked together.
He has been in the game for twice as long as I, so I sort of have a fresh outlook on things, but he knows things I do not…..and this has to do with -politics- in the game. Personal, guild, city, class…..the politics are what make the game go. Who you know, who you can do favours for, if they like your attitude.

Everything is a big web.
A sticky, confusing, easily deteriorating web.
I noticed someone was searching from AOL about Joshua Tree NP. Which makes me think … well it just makes me think.
I’ll skip that.
People hate it when I do that. Say something and then stop. Shrug it off. Leaving this gaping hole in the communication web. A bit that everyone weaves into.  I do it in  life. Game or  real.
Oh nevermind, I won’t get into that. -grin-
I went on vacation, but turned out to be something serious had to be taken care of. What was it? Can’t tell you. Don’t want to talk about it. -shrug-
I will say that I hooked up with family. My gods what a spin that was. My family doesn’t change, that’s good, basically. It was as if I’d never left. Usually people change a lot, friends drift apart, life goes on. Life went on, but no one changed. Maybe they looked a little washed out, but absolutely nothing changed. The love was still there. The sympathy was still there.
Sympathy? Yes. Madre. She was always just barely hanging on, in my mind. Always ready to blow. It isn’t an explosion, though, now I see. It is a slow leak. She’s in a puddle at everyone’s feet. But because she’s down there, not seeing eye to eye with anyone… It just simply isn’t like that to her. My family has sympathy for me. Because of her. -roll-
Enough about that.
I got a new tattoo. It’s an ankh over my heart. OK, not over my heart really, my left boob. It’s the thought that counts. It’s sweet. But my phone is dead, so I can’t post the picture. -shame-
Death.
No, I won’t say it. Those that need to know, know.
“The sweetest way to die” – Cardigans, it’s somewhat of a dirge. Taps. -sigh- Then going into work today, I heard that sad bagpipe song.
A broken person is usually noticeable. Usually.
My game is this huge web, too. Not too terribly many people, although a good bit. Plucking at strands, hard to mend the broken ones. Sometimes you just have to eat the web and and make a new one. I don’t like the idea of eating something I already put out, so, that’s not going to happen.
I had more to say but I’m making an attempt at being cryptic.
Love.
Ahhhhhhhhhh. Really, what needs to be said about that? It  is the best feeling in the world.  It makes me smile when I can’t.

They are really here….. AGAIN
My people at work know I made cookies last year, so I’ll have to start baking again. A nasty little rumor has been going around about how delicious they were. So now everyone expects it.
People say I’m the nice one. Grrrrr, I tell them it’s all lies. And that I want the names of these  people ruining my rep.
We have a new manager over us again. *facepalm*
Every manager comes in saying the same thing. Every manager leaves. It all boils down  to  “Ask Death”.  These fools leave in me in charge. 
If I ever do make my own cafe, I will have a ton of employees to choose from.

well, right before the reviews/links page was ripped away i got bit by a vamp from bitefight. so if you want me to bite you, click on the bite, register and list  ” sarda “  as your creator. it’s somewhat of a game. vampire vs werewolf. but it’s like a rpg. but it’s not much.
I WAS BORED
so, since i was at it, i went and joined runescape too. that one is a little more in 3-d. i filled up my items, didn’t make it to the bank, got killed, lost everything. i’ll have a go at it next week, on the days off.
they both have free starter accounts. that’s why i joined. free free free. lemme know if you know of any others, there’s got to be cooler ones.
absolutely loved guild wars trial, but i still haven’t gotten around to buying the starter disc. they are free too, and totally 3-d.
also on the bored track i made a yahoo group about easy eats.
for our anniversary last month…since i hadn’t posted in a while…..i don’t think i posted… and don’t feel like looking. got the hunni mon a new wedding band. it has a teensy diamond in it and the outside band spins.
we also got some indoor plants to play with. see if i can keep some succulents alive. one looks like a rock. very cool.
hunni mon got me a very cool copper bracelet and a carved wooden road runner.

finally got to see howls moving castle. cool

placed another cache.

borrowed several movies from the library along with some netflix the past couple weeks.
jericho, mirrormask (neil gaiman, yeah!), sideways…can’t think what else.
groovin on making foccaccia bread, making more on the morrow.
it was like a teaspoon sugar in the yeast in some nice warm water. then i added a couple tablespoons oil, not quite 3 cups flour, and the seasonings (basil, oregano, salt, pepper flakes- every little bit i was trying to empty jars of, so i could buy some fresh) . let it rise. then squished it into a rectangle, made it flat, poked dents in it, sprinkled some salt and parmesan, baked on 425 for about 20 minutes.
made some chicken in white sauce (a la king, without veggies) to go with the bread for dinner…slobber. it was so good, i had it the next day at work for lunch…cold.
the next day when i got home from work i decide at 10 pm to make some more bread, the sweet buns. co-workers want to try the focca bread next time i make it, and many got to try a bit of the sweet bread, they loved it.

i try to get into the spanish more and more. i mostly answer just short short in spanish to questions. but also i listen to my co-workers when they don’t think i can understand them (in spanish) and give them an answer (half the time in english and half the time very short spanish). some co-workers like it when i say que? i guess it’s a you have to be there thing. it’s the way i say it…just tickles them to death. people like it when you effectively try to learn the language, it seems to show love and respect down here.
so don’t be a cholo.

working butt off.
think i’ve decided to try and work as many nights as i can. it gives me
time to stay up late when i get home, and not use an alarm the next day
to get up = more real sleep.

Yup. Boarded the animales. Set off on a road trip.
First I have to throw a link out there so you won’t feel the need to visit The Thing. I’ve been feeling the need to find out what it was but just didn’t want to pay the buck. So here you go, found a slide show for ya.

Stopped in AZ and stayed at picacho peak park. The saguaros were sahwaring. Some mice came out to play…around me…they ran around and around, fighting with each other. Looked like they were trying to get the attention of a female that was poking her nose out from a hole near by.

We got back in the car after a night there. Nice story actually, wish I could have recorded the sad, loud drunk that was the last straw in even attempting to get any sleep.
We were planning on getting up at 3am, after having gone to bed at like 7pm…when the sun went down. I got up about 1am, hunni rolled out the tent about 3. We had a quick oatmeal breakfast, coffee for the road, packed up tent, stopped at the bathroom to brush teeth and headed to California.
Really you should have heard the dude. First he was all like happy…
“I came to arizona, man, and i found U, man. You’re the only one who can help me, MAN.” Then he would repeat the chorus of a song…turn the page. Once he got to the part “playin star again” he would explain to his chick (that he kept calling ‘man’) that some people thought it was “being a star again”, but he explained it was “playing the star again…”
An hour later it had gone down hill. While we were eatting the oatmeal we heard a dog go by. Then the chick started whining “STOP IT! go away.” Then dude noticed the dog was gone and yelled for it. I think the name was like Gohan or something. Then dude says a bunch of things including “The dog is gone and so am I, maybe you can get HIM to find your dog ’cause I’m outta here, man.”
He was still yelling and singing as we were driving out of the park.

Always wanted to check out Joshua Tree since U2 put out that album. Hunni decided we were ‘going to California’ (as Led Zeppelin says). He brought me to this place (JTNP) that was like manymanymany City of Rocks all rolled into Big Bend NP.

Getting pet sick (I was) so we headed back home, but too late to pick them up, so we had a night alone. . . to watch movies that’d came in, new prison break, etc…
got the pets the next day, set up the tent so it could dry out (it snowed twice while we were at JTNP).

My little guy is sitting behind me on the chair…having a dream…kicking me while I type this.
Wednesday, Thursday and Friday we’ll probably do some caching and such…
Saturday, back to work. GROAN.

yup. vacation coming up. first some pictures. i just got finished working another 7 days in a row. got two very cool things (to me) caching this time. a little metal rooster and an even smaller coyote of pewter or silver or something. we racked up 7 finds this time. brings us to 21, i think?

the mango of city of rocks ^
that’s what i love about city of rocks. the rocks resemble so many things. there’s one that looks like an alien head. and there’s this huge one we saw today that resembled exactly a … nevermind. but it did look just like it…darn, i’ll have to get a picture of it next time.
the rocks below look like they’re having this heavy conversation about the one to the far right. like it’s caesar or something.

so. vacation. do we follow the continental divide. tour ghost towns. head for the ocean. camp in arches. travel through reservation land.
who knows. i don’t.
still thinking on getting someone to house sit (not sure who would want to stay way out here for a week). or to let previous owners have the dog to their place for a week (don’t want her to pick up bad habits). neighbor to tend to cats(scared of her falling on stairs, or cats escaping).

here’s the view from massacre peak.

made a tile bg picture from it’s rockface we climbed up to get to a cache.

the ‘wind and water’ cache site is the second picture.
where we placed our first cache, near an abandoned mine, is the third picture.

i finally have a local clinic to go to when i’m ailing. got violently ill a week ago. right after coming back from massacre peak. ended up being a stomach bug that i musta got from work. she put me on the baby diet (bananas, crackers, applesauce), manzanilla tea (mexican version of chammomile), and gatoraide. i went without chocolate for 5 days. everyone at work missed me. warms the soul.

ahhhhhhhhhhh
new year. i’m up for eval soon, which means it’s almost vacation time!!! today a co-worker wanted to try and dump work on me by asking “d, would you like some extra responsibility?” i was like “nnnnno” and walked away to continue my already busy, full work day.
as if.
why should i want to turn  into a whiney baby who doesn’t like my job, complaining and knowing that people don’t want to work with me because i call in all the time because of my miserable-ness.
no
SO. for the holidays: HE was surprised with a new digital camera. i was surprised with a new toys…knitting needles, yarn and other accoutrements for the craft. and i got the serenity movie, to complete the dvd collection.
the browncoats website will be no more. the signal is being lost. sad sad sad.
zoe is teething… dropping baby teeth all over the house, well atleast two i was able to find and save. yesterday she looked miserable..small dark eyes, you could just tell her mouth hurt. she’s leaving specs of blood on her ‘yo quiero dog’ stuffy. she lost her ‘baby’ we got just before the big trip (a stuffed cat with a squeaky in it). we cannot find it anywhere.
we are officially geocaching now. we’ve found and traded at 6 local ones. fun thing to do in this place.