April 5, 2003

  • my garden grows grief, pride, timidity, fragile passion, endurance, warmth, taste, luck, faithfulness, sincerity, submission, sorrow, and satire.*


    one of my worst dreams last night. sean was dead. woke up way early. was hard to shake it off. death had taken the form of sean. comforting me. saying 'it was ok'. and i'm thinking 'how can it be ok, my hunni is dead?' i appreciated the comfort he offered anyways. though i was so confused...distraught. it was nice to know death took the shape of my my loved one, though. didn't realise until the end of the dream, who was helping me and that i was being 'guided', for lack of a better word...


    my bad dreams usually have to do with death, conspiracies in large factories, or a burgler coming to find me hidden behind a door at my grandparents house.


    on the down low


    found this page about the *language of flowers, after buying a purple hyacinth this morning. great smell.


    and one day i want a stupid beautiful wedding (yes, another vow exchange). (she has henna on her hands)

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  • I read the comments on messenger this morning at home.  that's where you talked about the aloe.  I was feeling low this week too.  Gave Bri a hard time Wednesday night with all of my blubbering and crap. 

  • omgosh, are we like mental twins or what with the lows. i went to our WAY pricey albertsons, mainly for one of my special instant coffees (i prefer orange cappuccino) and bird seed. thos darn birds went thru a whole damn bag this week!!! also picked up a hyacinth (i picked it for the smell), this one is purple and for not direct sunlight (total shade, i guess). i also ran across a special addition grocery mini book that had this changing cover of the beatles, for you, yes i grabbed it for you. grabbed a couple more kitty toys. yes, i know, s-p-o-i-l-e-d. i also picked up a chocolate mocha iced coffee mix, i haven't tried it, but i have a feeling you and sean will love it!

  • I'm thinking a narrow bridge over a high gorge, a loooooong white veil, and a pocketknife

  • Okay Mr. NBK.     And beautiful weddings are not stupid! 

    Woo Hoo for the Beatles and the iced coffee.  Yummy.  Can't wait to come over tonight.  Damn birds, LOL, whatya gonna do with them.  And yeah I was thinking the same thing about mental twins. 

  • language of flowers is awesome. although i've never known anyone to pay attention to it much. bummer that. come to think of it, if i want flowers i just get them myself. i should make my next bouquet with that in mind. am currently thinking i need to buy silica so that i can cut flowers from the garden this summer and make some dried arrangements. should make a "homey" bouquet or something with that.

    isn't traditional dress always incredible? and the intricate henna designs the Indians do always astonish me. no matter how creative or artsy i am, i never manage something like that.

    hope the low fades out for ya...

  • they always do, it's the waiting that sucks

    i was looking around at drying pages. i may try to use the food dehydrator, make some potpourri from that hyacinth and rose. but i'd really rather figger out how to like steam the flowers or something to make a smell good flower water. but that would priobably be a matter of like squishing the essence out and adding it to water...

  • spidey...you know like 'stupid fresh', 'stupid beautiful'

  • ahh my nightmares scare me too much... hard to shake off and always getting worse =(

  • I always have nightmares about my grandmother's basement, and cedar wardrobes and such. Creepy shit.

    I'd love to renew my vows, too. That would be fun as hell.

  • Wow I love your xanga! It's so original!! I love flowers, thanks for the link! ^_^

  • woah i have missed a lota stuff here *blushes* flowers my fav flower is a yellow rose

  • You know, I would think the food dehydrator would work well. As for flower water, I have a friend that's made homemade bath salts before. I was actually contemplating trying to use some of the blossoms to scent something like that. I'm not sure if they'd need to be mashed up into little bits or if there's a better way to do it. But I'm determined to manage to make something with the night blooming jasmine that's in back of the house. I'll have to see if I can find any good web pages for that.... or maybe I can ask my cousin Mark. I don't think he's done anything like that, but he's got a greenhouse. He might be able to tell me where to look.

  • Just wanted to drop you a line and tell you that I think your xanga site rocks. :)

  • thank you s.w.

  • Henna rocks, if I do say so myself.

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